written by jenn satsune (via ohsatsune)
That’s one of the worst feelings.
I really don’t like jumping the fun, especially in relationships now but I’m a bit weary. Drew and I are becoming serious enough to make me think about our future and that makes me happy because he an amazing man. But what scares me is him getting out and moving to where he’s going to settle down, which happens to be Michigan, and I’m stuck here for I don’t know how long. I don’t want to be mean and hold him back but I don’t believe biting my tongue and not speaking my mind is any better. I want him around, atleast long enough to establish what will happen between us and my past relationships make me terrified of distance. I don’t like this dilemma but for now I’ll be patient and enjoy the time I have with him till THAT talk needs to be held.