Today, I became a high school graduate. 

I looked at my last report card that came with my diploma and though I made honor roll again, I’m still upset and know I could have done better. Don’t get me wrong, I am more than thankful to have had the grades I did that allowed me to walk across that stage along with all the people I grew up with. I wish I had a camera to have taken pictures with everyone, as well as have thought about the fact that would be the very last chance I had to say good bye to everyone, and sadly I didn’t get to do so. But I know everyone I met throughout all these years of school, I’ll always remember. I’m going to miss that school, and all the good it’s brought me in life. I couldn’t have done it without so many people. 

After getting past the walking part without tripping, I was over joyed, excited and happy I finally made it. Afterwards, it felt like I had to celebrate with friends. Though at first it seemed like a bust, it turned out great. As we all sat at the hookah lounge we laughed till we cried and our stomachs hurt, we stayed till we felt like it, but we simply were free. We also made two new friends, one that happened to have also graduated tonight, but from another school. Upon leaving, she asked us for all of our numbers to hang out with her sometime.

Only bitter part of my night was knowing he wasn’t there. Not only was he unable to see me graduate, but he wasn’t at his own graduation. It was taken from him and it wasn’t fair. I wanted more than anything to have just seen him tonight. I also wish her own graduation wasn’t taken from her. Two of my bestfriends didn’t get to graduate high school not because they weren’t smart enough, but because someone took that special moment from them. But I know one day, they will have their special moment again, but this time for college and I will be there cheering them on as they make an even greater milestone in life. I couldn’t be more blessed and thankful for them both.

This is the beginning of our lives, and what an amazing door I just walked through to start it. 

I may be excited and anxious for all this stuff happening since graduation is today. But my only thought is how you should be here. You were always there by my so during all the holidays and big events in my life, its sad you can’t be here for this one:/

I love you and can’t stop thinking of you. I’m looking forward to hearing your voice again.

Already have $200 from two people for graduation. My parents sent out 40+ announcements. If everyone sent/gave me money “traditionally”, i’m going to have so much money to buy myself a car and left over money since my parents have worked/are in the car business and they get employer discounts and shit.

Another thing i’m most excited for is his family being there for me to watch me walk, along side my family. If anyone has ever had the family of someone you dated love you so much they still call you their daughter-in-law though you’ve in a way broken up, an include you in anything that has to do with family events, it’s…something I couldn’t begin to show them my appreciation. I’ve grown to love his family over the years and not even a rough patch in my relationship with their son stopped that.

Grateful, I am. I’ll never be able to thank them enough.

“As time is up, i’m going to say i’m proud of you baby. Don’t be stressed out, just remember to be happy. I love you more than anything. Have fun, don’t do anything stupid.”-FDL

I’m going to miss this school. All of our initials at the lunch table I’ve sat at for the past two or so years are still there. We made memories noone can take away from us. Memories that not even the worst times in that school could ever spoil. I defiantly won’t miss the drama or hard times I went through. But, we had a great time putting our foot in the door to reality.

Even though I loved certain thing’s about high school, i’m still going to be everyone else who went there & solute them with a finger and “fuck you”, smiling i’m done.

Today i talked to someone from my past. I guess you could say someone important and meant a lot to me. They changed me and allowed me to see thing’s differently, as well as kept me alive in the toughest moments. I don’t know what to think of it really. Happy, sad, maybe both. Happy because we sat there laughing at all the good times we had and how we were able to share such a bond together; yet sad it ended the way it did. It was a bitter sweet thing, I guess. I’m lucky to have met a person like him and to have experienced the way he viewed the world, along with getting to be treated with such welcoming love by his family. He’ll always be someone i’ll look back on an simply smile I got to meet him.